fearless.shy: Nothing is Impossible!

‘Tara na Shy, join ka na, kaya mo yun!’ – Paula exclaimed when she’s trying to convince me to join their 2^nd run which will be my 1^st ever run (no training, no jogging, no preparation ever).

At first, I was hesitate to join them (Paula, Andrew, Shun, Derek and Lea) because I am a BIG GIRL. I am heavy, ofcourse it will be difficult for me to run since I know that I will get a not so good result. Pero dahil ayaw ko namang magpahuli sa team namin at gusto ko yung lumalayas kame ng grupo talaga, at dahil nainggit ako sa run nila before, I said “SIGE”!

I can’t believe that I said yes to them. Oh no!

Nung una napaisip pa ko, ‘kaya ko ba talaga?’ pero sarili ko lang din naman yung sumagot ‘Shy! 5k lang yun, OA mo ha?!’

So okay na, 5k, fine, AJA nalang!

The night before we fully decided to register on our 5k Yamaha run, they changed their minds. Ayaw na nila ng 5k, 10k na lang daw.

Huh!? 10k?!

Can’t be!!!

I really can’t go and join them, baka mahimatay ako sa daan, dyahe diba?

So I said, no.

Paula, again tried her best to convince me. Shun helped her too and even Boss Drew.

‘Kaya mo yun!’

‘Malapit lang yun, di naman yun puro takbo eh, pwede ka namang lumakad.’

‘Sayang kasi Shy, same price lang naman tapos achievement pa yun’

So on and on and on…

I can’t decide, I wanted to join pero di ko kaya ang 10k! My golly!!!

So before pa maubos ang convincing power ni Pau, I said YES again. Bahala na si batman, kaya ko yun, may ambulance naman diba?

Hahaha!

So a week before the much awaited 10k run challenge, we’ve plan to jog, pero di kaya ng schedule so nauwi kames a ‘stairs’.

Oh yes, stairs sa office, sa fire exit. Cool!

In short, may challenge naman akong dinaanan before ang 10k run, pero kahit na, I am still nervous no!

July 3 came. Medyo kabado pa ko, but my sister was there to support me, to take some pics and wait for me sa finish line =)

Picture picture muna, kelangan ng ebidensya syempre na tatakbo, tumatakbo at tatakbo kame. Whew!

Gun start!

From the start line, people on my front started to run, some started to walk and ako, tulala, naglakad, jog kunwari. Tapos yung mga kasama ko, unti unti na silang nawawala.

Argh!

Where are they?

So fine, I am old, old enough to know what to do even if I really don’t know the things that might happen during this 10k run.

Run. Walk.

Paulit-ulit lang yung ginagawa ko, mas matagal pa nga yung walk kesa run/jog.

I saw some runners who were running so fast. I am totally amazed! I told myself, ‘so here you are, aatras ka pa ba? Go, kaya mo yan!’

Well, one thing I’ve realized that day is that ‘mahirap pala kausap ang sarili’ hehehe.

On my first kilometer, I felt some pain on my tummy. Sa may bandang tagiliran, gusto ko na tuloy sumuko, uuwi nlang ako, pero sayang naman diba, 9k na lang eh!

So I run again even if its kinda painful, I just continue running and just ignore the pain.

When I reached the 3k banner, I felt so proud.

Then I saw an ambulance, during that time I am having a hard time to breathe. My heart is beating so fast and it’s quite painful. Again, I have tried to ignore the pain. But honestly, I really wanted to go to that ambulance and ask the driver to drive me home so I can rest.

Fear is starting to cover me, I just pray. I asked God to guide me all the way, and then a gospel song played on my iPod.

The lyrics said: ‘Through You, I can do anything, I can do all things, cause it’s You who gave me strength, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE…’

Oh yes, nothing is impossible with God.

Then after ilang minutes lang nakita ko na yung banner ng Yamaha showing the ‘9k’ symbol.

Wow!

Nasa 9^th km na ko? Amazing!

Sa sobrang galak, napasigaw pala ko, well not exactly sigaw pero napalakas lang yung voice ko.

Sabe ko, ‘Yes! Isa na lang!’

Sakto naman na may dumaan sa gilid ko, so nung nasa front na sya, narinig nya pala ko, lumingon sya and he smiled, ayun, smile na lang din ako. Pero grabe, nakakahiya pala.

Hahaha!