Miracle Happens For A Reason

Heart break.

It’s been a while since the last time I cried due to heart breaks.

Yes, I have been to so many heart breaks and this is the very first time I cried non-stop!

Non-stop, as in every time I think of him, I’ll cry – from time to time even if my eyes were tired, I can’t stop it, my emotion is killing me and I need to cry just to release the pain I am feeling inside.

This is too much, I don’t want to lose him but seems like God has a great plan for him. I know he’s already tired. Yes, he is.

There was a time that I told myself, ‘Shy, kaya mo yan. Darating talaga tayo sa ganyang stage, just pray for him’, then the other half of me says ‘no, I cant...I know he will stay and live with us’.

Since the time my mom told me that my grandpa (tatay Danny, tatay taba, tatay) was rushed to the hospital due to stroke, I can’t help myself but cry a river.

with tatay

I am not really close to tatay but I spent my childhood days with him and nanay (I am lola’s girl), but I know that he loves me so much and I love him too ofcourse.

Currently, they were in Aklan, too far from me and it will surely cost me a lot to visit them so I wasn’t able to be with them that often.

So when mom told me about the sad news, I don’t know what to do, honestly. I was really affected. Until the time I’ve found that his doctor told Nanay the sad news.

As per his doctor, it is impossible for tatay to survive so he advised nanay to remove him from the ICU since he was already in coma. Tatay’s siblings were asking my lola to bring tatay back home and just wait for his death which didn’t allowed by my mom and his brother.

nanay, tatay and mom

What they did is they rented a private room for him and let his unconscious body rest inside the airconditioned room.

I fully understand why my mom doesn’t want to bring his father home, they believe that miracle will happen and he will survive. I do have the same wish too, though I am starting to feel strange.

On his 2^nd day at the hospital, I called nanay around 3o’clock in the morning just to know if she’s still okay. She answered the phone and told me that she’s just fine and she updated me about my lolo’s condition.

She said that he was in coma, I asked if she was able to talk to tatay though he was on that condition. Nanay said no, cause as per her, tatay wasn’t able to hear her. I told her that there is a possibility that tatay was able to hear whatever she says; she agreed but said that it’s impossible.

Accidentally, nanay called me using my other name (mai), they used to call me that way even tatay. Right after she said my name, tatay moved his foot and leg. Nanay screamed with joy and starts to cry, she said while shouting ‘Mai, gumalaw yung paa nya Mai!!!’ – with surprise, I told her ‘sabe sayo nanay eh, naririnig ka nya!!’ then I started to cry cause I can’t believe that he will move despite the fact that he’s comatose for more than 24hrs already.

Nanay started to shout again, ‘Mai kausapin mo sya dali naririnig ka nya’ – and so I started to talk to him and told him to be strong and were just here for him. I also reminded him my promised that I will visit him again together with my 2 siblings. Nanay was so happy and I really can’t tell how happy she was that time, she told me ‘mai, gumagalaw yung ulo nya, itinataas nya yung ulo nya, umuungol sya! Yung paa nya tinataas nya ulit..’ – upon hearing that, I started to cry again. I can’t believe that miracle is happening right that moment!

Lord God proves me that He is true. He saves my tatay from possible decease.

That morning, around 8:30am mom sent me a text message to tell me that tatay was able to open his eyes, yes, he was able to wake up despite the fact that the doctor says that he can no longer live.

I really can’t believe on what is happening now. What I only knew is that, God granted my prayer to be with tatay during this very heartbreaking situation of him.

Tomorrow, together with my family, we will fly to Kalibo to visit him and extend our love for him. I know that Papa Lord will take tatay away from us soon, but I want to thank Him for giving us this chance to be with tatay.

Looking forward for our safe trip and soon to be an unforgettable bond with tatay.

Whatever will happen these coming days, I will accept it with all my heart. It’s painful, but God knows what is best right?

I will just let Him do what is needed.